Confession – I’ve Been Resisting the Lord

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ave you ever been in a place where you realized you were resisting the Lord?  Perhaps you were convicted about something but didn’t want to change.  Or He asked you to do something that you didn’t want to do.  Ultimately, this is resistance.  We persist long enough and it becomes rebellion.  Yeah, I said rebellion.  Maybe as believers we need to get more comfortable owning when we have some rebellion…

A couple of years ago, I felt like the Lord said something to me about my identity through a dream.  I was both surprised and a little disappointed.  What I felt like the Lord was saying about my identity wasn’t something I connected to or even liked.  It just felt like He was talking about someone else.  I wasn’t sure what to do, and frankly didn’t want what He was offering, so I did nothing.  A short while later, another dream came that I didn’t understand.  I shared both dreams with a prophetic friend who helped me see the connections in what the Lord was saying about who He made me to be.  I still didn’t really like what the Lord was saying (“Can I have a different word, please?”), but I was no longer confused.  Once I could see clearly, I knew I had a decision to make—repent or continue to go my own way. 

I began the process of repenting by telling the Lord for a few days that I was willing to receive what He was saying, even though I still didn’t like it.  Character building, that’s what that is…I can do hard things I don’t like.  It also helps to prepare my heart to remember that He is faithful and I can trust Him even when I don’t understand yet.  A few days later, I spent some extended time in worship and prayer that ended with my heart softening, repenting and submitting to what the Lord was saying over me.  The transition in my soul was a bit stunning. 

As I sat on the couch with my coffee marveling at what had just happened, I said, “Thank you, Lord, for peace restored!”  Immediately I “heard” in my spirit, “It’s agreement that’s been restored, which ushered peace back in.”  In that moment, I remembered Amos 3:3, “Can two walk together, except they be agreed?” 

Agreement is a process between the Lord and our soul.  Thank you, Lord, for Your kindness that leads us to repentance, submission and agreement with You once again! 

Is there any place that you might be resisting God?  Is there anything He has said to you that you don’t like and might be ignoring?  I’d love to read your comments below.